finally something to look at

I finally got around to giving the site a design. Firstly, sorry if you use internetExplorer as your web browser, because the design won't look like it's supposed to. I'd recommend Mozilla Firefox; it actually presents sites as they're supposed to look = good. ie = bad. The design is somewhat based off another site I have come to look up to (such clean coding) but I created all the images and wrote all the code m'self so I'm proud. I also made myself get completely into CSS, meaning next time I do a redesign I will still be able to view the site exactly how it is now simply by putting up the old stylesheet = niceness. Along with my new styleducation, I taught myself how to use dreamweaver and all that. I had always used frontpage just because.. I liked tables, and frontpage was easy on the resources and quick to do what I wanted it to do - I couldn't stand dreamweaver for its unneeded complexity BUT for css, wow its perfect.

Now. I should be going to sleep because I have to work all day tomorrow, but posting is fun now that I have a design on it (and now that I know someone actually reads what I write, yey I have a reader ;P). I feel slightly more held back than I did previously because as I was trying to get the design working I gave the link to my test page to a friend, and didnt realise until later that it still showed the subdomain... smrt = me. I'll try though.

In response to Maria's comments on manifestation, I have not read either of those books. The only reading material I have looked at so far is online. I didn't know where to start in the world of touchable literature, but I suppose now I do. To continue on where I left off however many posts ago that was, my sexuality or lack thereof is not easily defined. This is no doubt in part to my Christianity and structure of morals and responsibilities. See, it's where the gay? notgay? thing began to get a little tougher, because I never want and never will have 'sex' with a member of the same sex. It is something I am completely uninterested in. It's something that doesn't seem right from any view I look at. Besides, premarital sex with the opposite sex isn't something I plan on doing, and why would that be any different even if I were interested in sexual contact with men? So this leaves me as... a man who feels attracted to a number of other men, and a few women (although more of a yey you'd make a good, cute friend, type of attraction), but isn't prepared to go off and marry a woman at this point, and a union with a man would definately prove fruitless and empty. A few Sundays ago I attended the Contagious Christian class one of the pastors at my church put on, and I've been helping with many of the youth and young adult activities as well. It has aided me with reminding me that yes, God'll help me through if I trust him, but that is going to be a lot of work no matter which direction I go.

I've always wanted a big family, having been raised in one myself, and there is no way I could bring a child (adoption/other means) into a same-sex household. There may be more love than some traditional families experience, however the lacking of a mother or a father just seems like intentional deprivation of one of the core things a child needs to grow and learn. Speaking of learning, I need to learn to write less. I'm gonna run out of things in a week, hah.

and its 10 to four so I sleep.