fourty-days

I don't think I've updated on the job situation, so I'll do that first and get it over with. He called in the afternoon, on the 27th I think. We talked for about 10 minutes, (he estimated 20 to 40 in the email), and I answered some questions quite poorly, but it could have gone worse. I seemed relatively comfortable, and got us both laughing a couple times, but I don't know if that is worth hiring a potential employee on.

Apart from that it's been all wedding this, wedding that. I'm going to be soo wiped by the time sunday afternoon comes around. (wedding on saturday, but on worship team sunday morning, so afternoon is the logical stress completion date) and why am I hearing thudding noises inside the house, its 2:00am. People are asleep.

Onto more personal matters,

I think I may have said in a previous post that I am physically and mentally exhausted. On top of trying to pull of a wedding and createa movie and plan skits without the bride or groom knowing about it - in the few short days before the wedding, trying to find a new job, trying to work the job I already have, and trying to not explode from stress and overload and a nonexistant appetitie, I'm trying to figure out where I fit in to the world around me (no big surprise there, if you've been reading this blog for a while). And, to top it all off, I must act as if there is nothing in the world that is bothering me because I simply cannot deal with the problems that will bring - and I don't need to be burdening my well-being onto everyone around me. Sis' wedding is far more important (and to this I do not object, to an extent.)

GCN, the site I mentioned in the previous post, is in every way a huge conributor to the last point of trying to figure out myself and my world. I read and read and think and contemplate, and feel like I'm finally starting to understand things. It always helps when there are people with similar opinions, or even just people that support my opinions: For the most part, all of the members are supportive in this way and accepting of anyone who feels to offer his or her opinion, so long as it isn't an opinion full of hate and weak arguments.

I'm tired and should be sleeping, because I have to wake up in about 5 hours to pick up the doggie's business before the garbage man comes, but ehhhhh.

I don't know where else to go with this post, GCN takes up all my mental resources and leaves me having nothing much to say apart from "wee!" and "i'm tiiired."

So yea.

Wee!

I'm tiiired.

I also rented a suit: it makes me look skinny.