part deux

This morning I met with the academic advisor to discuss possibilities. She was very helpful, and I'm definately glad I spent the time to see her. We went over the courses I've taken, and looked into other programs up at the main campus. Turns out, depending on what I transfer into (if I transfer anywhere) I could have as many as 54 of 60 transferrable credits... which means I'd only be a few courses behind other students who started in that program at the same time as I started in mine. This is always good, cause then I wouldn't have to be stuck with some of my younger sis' friends in classes... I could actually be in most with folks my own age and maturity.

permutation

On Sunday I:
- was granted an extension on an assignment.
- cut my own hair (I first wanted to shave it all off (it's about 6" at the longest points), but resigned to simply chopping off the mullet).
- handed in my 2weeks notice at mcdonalds.

On Monday I:
- received a voicemail from a woman at ea
- started and completed project prior to extended deadline.

Today I:
- arranged an interview at EA for Thursday.
- didn't do any homework.
- feel....... different.

The theme of this weekend has been:
- Green Day - Wake Me Up When September Ends.

shadow waltz

I'm not doing well today. It could be because I'm still drained from the nonstop projecting the last half of last week, and the seemingly wasted day I had yesterday after class. Most likely, I'm back to wanting to get away from this school. It's different this time, however. It's not just the usual "i'm tired of computers and teamwork and want to learn about brains," it's just... different.

futura

Looking at my archives, I haven't really posted anything to think about recently. I attribute this to my lack of thinking about things as a whole. It's different, and it's nice. Letting the future come to you instead of trying to get there by your own power. I haven't seriously considered the discussion I was so into as little as a couple weeks ago - the discussion, of course, about homosexuality and all that. Am I allowed to say that I just don't let it take any deep hold in my mind anymore?

calliope

Well I've pretty much been home alone most of the weekend. Yesterday my parents left for a family bbq around 2, and took my sis to school on their way. I had the house to myself until I had to get ready and work from 5-1am. Before I could do that however, sis stopped by with a friend to borrow a monitor because apparently his was being used by the student association for something. I was all grungy and curled up on the couch watching serendipity and caught quite off guard. Meaning, if she doesn't go for him maybe I just will.

such great heights

"I think I just needed some me time. I knew I needed it in the days prior to school starting up again. I guess I just lost track of it when assignments and due dates began to present themeselves. My focus got caught up in that, and in not wanting to face more challenges than I was prepared for. Don't get me wrong, I still would much rather be studying the more human aspects of life, but I guess I can just do that on my own until this portion of my education career - an introductory degree, if you will - is completed and I'm free to explore other areas."

note* this post was written on paper no where near a computer, and the date and time correspond to that moment.

the shadowlands

Ryan Adams - The Shadowlands
(thanks to aaron for listing ryan adams on his blog)
It's even more fitting because it's currently pouring rain.

maybe later

i don't want to be here.

i really don't.

it's more than just.. the work,
i just have 0 interest in all but 1 course - I cannot take any others than the ones I am in if I want to get the degree, it's all planned out for us beforehand - and don't want to waste more of my life here.

powerobert

Well It's pretty official; I'm going to get an Apple powerbook once my student loan money comes in, and once I make up the difference from work. It'll be about $700 (CAN) more than I wanted to pay, and than I have to pay, but I just can't not get one. I've been obsessing over it for the past couple days now. I mean, I'll be doing my part to help advance technological culture past the days of Windows and non existant physical aesthetics.

It's just so sexy!

september

It's been September for quite a few days now, and of course that means school has started. I was lucky to be able to schedule my classes into 2 days this semester. Both days, Thursday and Friday, I have classes from 10am to 1pm (along with an 8:30 class every other Friday). There is of course another online class, as well as all the online coursework for the other classes, but these are the only times I need to be on campus. I think it will work out quite nicely. At this school the main homework due dates are weekend nights (meaning weekends are far from days off). That's the best thing about this schedule - I can have a real weekend again; only it consists of Monday and Tuesday.

reconfigured

Well Bingo, it may have looked good to you, but then the error comes again and it's all messed. I was tired of dealing with it so I exported everything, imported it into a new blog, copy and pasted all the templates and other settings, and here we are. Everything is in *.html cause I'm pretty sure it was the .php that was causing the annoyances (though i'm not sure why)

but hey, at least it works. let the commenting commence.

gabble gabble hay

seemed to be ok, then I tried adding a comment, and it's just messed. I tried to find other internet-ers who experienced this problem, and only found one so far who had. He solved it by exporting his entries and importing them into a new blog, deleting the old blog, and changing the new directory structure to how it was before. too much work for me.

what

I don't know why, but my site seems to like slipping into internal server errors now. It all works again after I rebuild everything... however I can't sit here and do that every time it messes up again. Hopefully it can be fixed soon. In the meantime, please refrain from posting comments because I think that's the problem (somehow)

If you want to let me know what you think, email meNOatSPAMrobertwesley.com minus the no spam of course.

jelly

Today I watched Garden State. I enjoyed it very much. I shall purchase it when it is released. Very simply, it was just a beautifully refreshing movie. It reminds me of that which I wish I could create... Meaning I often see myself directing and distributing a film of my own, which would no doubt end up similar to this one. I'll most likely never make it. I can't realistically see a set of actors living up to the standards I would set for them, or real locations perfect enough to hold scenes, and the list goes on.

It was very good though - I do recommend it to those of you who haven't seen it. It also made me think about something that I've written on here before (well, many somethings actually)

realization

As I went to sleep last night, I realized something about this blog. It is on the way to becoming another source to vent and complain: Exactly what I didn't want it to be. I had other blogs before, but I ditched them in order to start new and fresh and actually write decent, thoughtful posts. I may have had some on here, but I don't know just how many. I suppose it would help if I had things to write about... I don't like writing about politics or overly debatable subjects because I want to be as neutral as possible.

filler

I want to post something, but I can't think of anything to post. Except a post about wanting to post something. It could work... for a few sentences... and then I could blend it into some form of complaining about myself, like for instance my stubborn ignorance. The best example of which would be my lack of eating again. It's fun, but not really, but it is. I don't get it. It's almost like some form of sick challenge. To see how little I can eat during a day. And then I have no energy and am always tired, but do I change? nope. Cause it's fun, but not really, but it is.

I kinda sorta wanna learn more about eating disorders just to see how well I would be able to associate with people, while not actually being one of them.

landscape of life

I've added a new design to the site. If you've visited before, you probably have a cookie saved on one of the other designs. To see the new one, click "landscape" under Style Sheets on the menu. The top photo was taken just outside kamloops and is soooo good. Note - not for use elsewhere without permission. The layout and colours and fonts aren't exactly how I would like them, so expect them to be tweaked a bit over the next few days. If you're still using Internet Explorer, stop it. The site won't display correctly for you.

And a reminder: if you don't like this design, you can change it back to one of the other ones by going over to the side menu under Style Sheets. (prairie blue was the most recent before this)

dr mario

I'm sick. I saw it coming too; completely wore myself out on the weekend and the following days up until today. So now my "m"s are "b"s, "s"s are "dz"s, and "l"s are silent. Showing here: I hab a cod. I'b dzick. et cetera.

It's not too bad a thing though, because I havent been sick for a while and school hasn't officially started yet (first class is next thursday). Sometimes its just nice to be sick, and grab some chicken noodle soup and curl up on the couch, watching the rainy weather, and enjoying the comfort only such a thing can provide. And then have it interrupted by the all too pleasant nasal substance blockages.

The new student orientation went reasonably well if anyone is interested.