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Today I watched Garden State. I enjoyed it very much. I shall purchase it when it is released. Very simply, it was just a beautifully refreshing movie. It reminds me of that which I wish I could create... Meaning I often see myself directing and distributing a film of my own, which would no doubt end up similar to this one. I'll most likely never make it. I can't realistically see a set of actors living up to the standards I would set for them, or real locations perfect enough to hold scenes, and the list goes on.

It was very good though - I do recommend it to those of you who haven't seen it. It also made me think about something that I've written on here before (well, many somethings actually)

For instance. Not to spoil any of the movie, but there is much talk of home and what it consists of. This lead me to reconsidering my idea of me + husband + wife. Does it not look like a home I am already a part of? Father figure, mother figure, and myself (as well as sisters, but let's leave them out of it for now). In it's own twisted way, it seems like I want to construct a more coherent family than the one I was raised in. It makes sense. I wouldn't want just one parent, so why would I want just one spouse? But then, why am I looking elsewhere for said relationships when I already have them here at home? Well, more like when I already have the potential for them here at home. I spend time with my family, but it isn't personal time. There isn't much talking about me and my life, it's mainly just about the rest of them.

The next movie to see on my list is (expectedly) A Home at the End of the World. It will no doubt give me more to think about on this subject.

In the end, it was a very real movie. It was believable. And I want a natalie portman character to solve my problems as well.