chapter 5

It was today. I hadn't really realized it all this week, for projects and papers were being completed just about 24 hours a day since last saturday. But then it was over. I was given a hug by a classmate, who then added that I must stay at the new workplace until which time she will be looking for a referral to get in. And then I left.

I didn't look back.

As I walked out the main doors and into the mall, In The End by Linkin Park was the first thing I heard, particularily these lines:

But in the end, it doesn't even matter
I had to fall, to loose it all
But in the end, it doesn't even matter

After that was Cry Me A River by JTimerlake, which I ignored.

I then made my way to the skytrain and rode downtown to walk around in the dreary mess that is vancouver in the fall. It must have been a good 2 hours of aimless wandering before I went into starbucks to wait for a friend to get off work... which was another hour and a half. During which, I learned that the man next to me was pursuing a condo purchase, and happened to be discussing the financing options with an advisor or friend. I also learned that there is a large percentage of good looking people downtown if one sits and watches for an extended period of time. As well, I learned that if you watch someone for more than a few moments they're bound to look back at you.

More walking ensued, followed with meeting of another 2 friends before heading off for nurishment. (of japanese preparation for those who keep track)

To finish of my minute-by-minute report, we then left, they went to rent a movie, and I came home to sit and go to bed early.

and to think about what i've done..

I know it will turn out. It's just that I can't stop debating whether or not the choices I have made were the correct ones to make at this time. No one else can tell me if I have done the right thing, so if I want to have affirmation I must find it within myself. Though a hug and a "don't worry" would feel perfect right about now.

*hugs self*