addendum: the return

First I had a blog. Then I had a second blog and posted in it nightly for 5 months before deleting it. Then I had a third blog, and stopped using the first blog. Then I stopped using the third blog, saved the archive, and posted a couple more times before my host died. This is that blog.

And now an update for those of you who would like to know how I've been.

I'm still working at EA. It's not the best job, but I still believe it was given to me in order to change my mind and believe that I could in fact go to TWU if I worked hard enough (for employers, and to win scholarships). Along with that, I am in the process of applying to be a transfer student in the fall. My references are almost complete, I'm sending the transcripts in on Monday, and the application will be in before Friday. I will also be purchasing one of the new, better, cheaper, Apple PowerBooks sometime between now and summer. Although it will suck up half of my bank account (the other half needing to pay back that student loan), I know it will be a good investment. I won't have to sit in a dark, secluded room whenever I need to use it for work, school, or play, and it will be strong enough for me to hopefully start finding some more freelance work again (be it video, design, photo; whatever).

I expect to make enough money in the summer to pay for at least the first semester, and I'm trying my hardest to apply for all the bursaries/scholarships/awards that I can find. I know it will happen.. although my mom and sis still want me to live on campus for at least my first year (be it sophomore or junior, depending on my transfer credits). I agree that it would be a good thing to do as it would give me a chance to meet people, but I don't know how comfortable I would be moving in with a bunch of complete strangers. It's hard enough for me to grasp the idea of moving in with someone I already know... (it will be difficult if my roomie is immature and annoying... but on the other hand, he could be really cool.)

Anyway, I am pretty sure I will be pursuing an honors BA in Biblical Studies, and perhaps graduate school if that goes well. I just can't wait.

One more thing I can't wait for is the summer. Seriously, it's March 12, and it's been sunny for just about an entire month. I mowed the lawn today and helped my mom with some gardening (although in our case it was more like landscaping), sis2 and hubby came to help finish up the top deck and french doors, and sis3 is suntanning. It's winter. But it's sooooooo nice. Heaven? Nope, but gives me a good idea of what it'll be like.

Last thing. I don't plan to post in this blog again.. I'm more just keeping it here as an archive for me to look back on when I need encouragement. At this point I don't know if I'm gay or straight, or either of the two. It doesn't matter to me because either way, my focus is on God before anyone, or anything else. I know that He has and will continue to bring certain people into my life for a certain purpose, and I just can't wait to see who else is just around the corner. So as an alternative to "this is my life," I will be starting a new photo+word blog around the time I get my powerbook. It will be at live.robertwesley.com ("liv" not "liev").

Now it's time to get back out into the March summer! Take care everyone, and thank you for taking the time to read my ramblings from day to day :). I really do appreciate all of you. +Rob