January 30, 2008
with every heartbeat
As patterns of days and weeks repeat over time, the brain gradually overloads. Think of a laundry basket that hasn't been emptied in a while.. and you can't remember where the washer is. That thing'll just keep piling up until you have nothing left to wear. And rather than go about your daily business in the buff, you realize you'd better start digging around for the machine so you can get those things washed up and back on the shelves. Although I just did laundry a couple days ago, today, for the sake of my sanity, is that day.
Continue reading with every heartbeat... 09:35 PM & Comments (1)January 21, 2008
lunar
I've written before about my love of the weather, and of nature, and the environment. My obsession with clouds and colours. Tonight we have a nearly full moon that is so exceptionally bright, it puts the streetlights to shame. Before stepping out onto the deck, I fully expected my feet to sink into what seemed to be a layer of ice or white film, but turned out to be no less than the light of the moon. Amazingly crisp, after what seemed to be weeks and weeks of rain, slush, snow, and cloudy skies. But not tonight. Tonight is pure, clean, infinite space, littered with stars and the mirrors of the heavens. And I am grateful.
Continue reading lunar... 12:49 AM & Comments (3)January 09, 2008
atonement
Let's start this off by saying I wanted to cry. I needed a good teary-eyed cinema experience, as I hadn't had one in a while. So. Picked him up, made our way into Coquitlam for some eats, and headed back to the theatre to buy our tickets and wet our cheeks. Error one: He beat me to the fastpay machine, which subsequently charged him before developing a printer error. No worries, we'll sort it out after the film. Error two: The film Atonement must now use it's namesake in repaying the emotional disappointment I experienced. Error three: The manager was kind enough to refund us for the earlier printer error in the form of 2 movie vouchers, but my guilt-ridden self felt like I was scamming him to give us free stuff. When really all he did was repay the tickets we doubly paid for.
Continue reading atonement... 10:52 PM & Comments (4)January 05, 2008
jupiter
Of all the sounds in the world, there are none that bring me as much comfort as a strong windstorm through the cedars at home. I'm sure I've written about it before - lying in my bed as a child, listening to the branches sweeping and swaying. Often, the wind is so powerful I wake up and find the street littered with needles or limbs or full branches. Mom reminds me the entire area used to be a forest before they began building. Our home was the 2nd in the area, next to the show home. I guess they decided it would be a selling feature to keep some of the monster trees in the backyard. The sort with trunks that last 60 or 70ft before the branches even begin. The sort that may have been beautiful in a thick forest, but aren't so splendid when they're more alone... it seems at least one somewhere in the neighbourhood goes down every year, sometimes via chainsaw, sometimes via the wind. When the latter happens, it ain't so much fun.
Continue reading jupiter... 05:43 PM & Comments (1)January 01, 2008
resolution
The dark winter sky beyond the clouds begins to burn a deep shade of blue. Patches of snow reflect the increasing light as if each crystal was itself illuminated. Farms and fields sit still, covered in a soft layer of frost, waiting patiently. The lines bounce off the hood, one, then another, then another, in an eternal flashing pattern. My seat rumbles and sways with the texture below as the wind plays its lullaby. Perhaps, not so different from what my parents will soon enjoy on their flight to visit the prairie relatives as I return home to put myself to sleep. It is this day I have witnessed. This new year I have birthed. In pleasant company I did lay 2007 to rest, and in perfect solitude I welcomed 2008. It will be a good one, to be sure.
Continue reading resolution... 07:40 AM & Comments (5)