February 24, 2008
hide and seek
It's lonely out here in this world. Look out the window, and there are people everywhere. Some in groups, some solo, talking, walking, smiling, laughing, holding hands, listening to music, checking out the sights, making a call, shooting a photo, carrying some bags, pushing a stroller. I sit in my aquarium watching them go by. Ambient dreamscapes leak through my speakers and fill the room, bouncing off wall and floor. The sun sets, reflected off the glass towers surrounding me. I turn it up, hoping to drown out emotion. Trying to overwhelm my mind into a state of complacency. Sitting on the edge of my recently acquired bed, eyes glazed over, powerbook on my lap, cell phone at my side, I throw my head back, I close my eyes, and I let it go. I let him go.
Continue reading hide and seek... 05:56 PM & Comments (5)February 21, 2008
time & space
I don't know what to write anymore. It sorta bugs me. I could tell short, random stories, but they wouldn't make any sense when put together. For instance, I attended a once-a-month praise and worship service at one of the old downtown churches this past sunday with a couple friends. It's a progressive, inclusive service held on the 3rd sunday of the month. We sing a bunch of songs, letting our voices echo through the cathedral, and spend a few minutes reflecting on a short meditative word from the worship leader. It was refreshing, and I was pleased to have doubled my church points for the week, having been on worship team duty at the home church that morning.
Continue reading time & space... 01:32 AM & Comments (2)February 11, 2008
ma fleur
I don't have the time to be writing this. In fact, I'm skipping classes today just to find time to meet the deadlines fast approaching in my other classes this week. I'm also back in Delta. Parents off for a week of relaxation, younger sis (21ys/o) requested company out here because she's not comfortable coming home after her classes to a dark, empty house. I'll stay a few nights, and try to enjoy the comforts of a real mattress if I have time to sleep. But even when I manage to get school thoughts out of my mind, I still can't rest.
Continue reading ma fleur... 04:05 PM & Comments (4)February 04, 2008
come rain, come shine
Rufus crooning Judy in the background, I reach to grab a bottle of water from the cardboard night table beside my semi-inflated air mattress. So this is what living away from home is like, I said to myself. I like it. Or at least I liked the first 24 hours or so. We'll see how the upcoming weeks and months go, though I'm sure things will get better once I manage to get a real bed in here, and perhaps a chair or two in the main living area. Downtown already feels different. It feels both bigger and smaller at the same time. It's familiar, yet completely new. It's a feeling that's so different from any other I've experienced.
Continue reading come rain, come shine... 11:31 PM & Comments (2)